Hi! I am someone who enjoys art and music and I love science. I have had a girl fall into my lap that I have the priveledge of calling mine. Mostly I am looking for friends, and people that I might learn from because we never stop learning. I have led myself on a new journey of self discovery and found that I can no longer be what I am not, but only what I am because pretending to be alive does not make you alive any more than an elephant who pretends to be a mouse. This realization has allowed me to assume the proper role that I feel I should have, restored my sense of value for my life and myself, and dramatically increased my self esteem. I also realize that my value and success as a human being is not based on what I can do, how well I can do it, but moreso on how I love, who I love, and how that love affects me. I only hope that everyone will be so fortunate to discover the things that I have in such a short period of time (although I looked high and low for weeks to find it). Ah, another thing I love is learning and that covers just about anything. I think the world is a neat place to live in, and I like learning more about it and the people who call it home along with me. I am transgendered if someone likes labels, but I don’t really because I know who I am and for me, that’s all that really matters. “Our integrity sells for so little, yet it’s the only thing we really have.”—V for Vendetta. I’m honest, almost brutally honest although I try to keep others from being hurt. And to wind everything up with a nice little bow on top, I love security and protection. I love them so much that I’ve spent a good deal of my life providing them for others and will continue to do so with every fiber of my being.
I am not at all afraid to talk, although I do so with respect to whom I am talking, but I am also a human being, so I expect a certain amount of respect in turn, just sayin’. Thanks for reading this far!
La Kajira
“Why must I?” the little slave asks
As she stares down at her hands clasped
“Why must I be the one?”
“Whose freedom is gone?”
She stares down, her Master is there
As she hears her voice, cold and bare
He looks down at her and says,
“Because it’s who you are pet, and no other guess”
“You were born a slave girl”
“But in your confinement your freedom unfurls”
“And you can’t be anything but who you are”
“Or life will leave a permanent scar”
“Pretending to be anything but who you are”
“Is what keeps freedom away from you far”
“But don’t fall for the trick”
“That the world with you will stick”
“That you are worthless because you are a slave”
“But the truth is that your worth is rave”
“But to lie to yourself and think that you’re not”
“The slave that you are is not in your heart”
She closed her eyes as a tear did fall
As her mind took in overcoming the wall
Feeling proud of the point that she lived
Fighting for her life only now to give
Getting to the place to be able to serve
Her womanhood just bought by her spirit and done
Overcome with shame of questioning her life
She kneels to Him, tears flowing, spirit in writhe
Smiling he reaches for her, knowing her past
Knowing the body she had which did not last
But seeing the girl that she now has become
The slave of His heart, her service He’s won
At that moment, she felt really free
Remembering the time, a few months ago impede
When she finally came to terms with who she is
And it all comes home with a gentle kiss
Her spirit wells up, her emotions run high
As she raises her head to look to the sky
Knowing how lucky she is, for where she is now
Knowing the fight she’s just finished, and then she bows
Her head touches his thigh in respective tone
His face a smile, does cross, her actions are done
Looking down on his little chained girl
Being glad that he took her from her world
At first her face down, it did not rise
For at last she accepted her fate in her own stride
She was determined to show him the respect
That he deserved, her leash he held, without fear or a speck
Reaching down, following his chain
Raising her head, her eyes once again
Tears flowing from her delicate face
Told him that she had run her last race
Her spirit now calm, in emotional glee
Her will no longer against him impede
With her shame and tenderness she did look
Into the eyes of her Master, slightly she shook
“I am glad that you’ve come to this one little thought”
As he brushed her cheek, drying tears she’d wrought
Her head shifted in his hand, feeling his grip
Of his ownership on her heart it did dip
Petting her gently, she did now fall
Into love’s dungeon with its sheer granite walls
With him in the lead, she obediently followed
As the chain on her neck, led where he wanted to go
Knowing that she couldn’t live without him
In that simple cell, she fought the smallest of whim
To resist him once more to try to escape
Knowing she loved her cruel, yet wonderful fate
She knew at once that she was his once again
Feeling the freedom that comes at the end of a chain
Phoenix