I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot, I did
And now
When all is done, there is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won, you can go ahead tell them
Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be impossible,
Falling for betrayal is worse
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
And thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know
I know and now
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So I flew from The edge of the cliff My arms were open wide hoping for anyone to catch me anyone to care enough.My Heart lept from My chest as I fell blindly desperately grasping at emptiness there was nothing.I should have known There was no such thing as safety no family,no safety net,I was left in a silent raptured prayer to a god that I barely believed in hell I doubted if He even existed but this was the time I would find out I guess. I was no saint i never lived my life to the guidelines of a bible thumping holy roler but i vowed now if i got through this alive I would change my ways.I just prayed I landed atleast on my feet I didnt care if it left me battered and bruised I just wanted some peace. If one lesson could be learned from all this it would be this NEVER trust another human who offers their hand out to You there is ALWAYS going to be some sort of string attached.Of course I should have remembered this from the begining of time I spent my whole life fighting just to live even if not for myself but for the sake of keeping 4 other humans alive.I made it this far Alone and I Know now I will eternally walk alone for only the darkness will embrace me.With a Cynical smile I felt my breath escape me and I waited to feel the shatter.I could hear every voice that screamed through My life the cold cruel calculated shallow heartless words and i began to weep because only now did I understand how much they knew and were probably right before i knew or had even grown up to know for myself,bitch,stupid,worthless,punching bag.... never amount to anything. Guess I am nothing. Maybe that is why I am submissive? because that way people can use me?
