Mom - R.I.P May'1954 - Nov'2023
You Will Always be a Part of Who I am, And I'll always Miss you
Sometimes, the world just gets a bit too much for me and I have to step back and take a deep breath.
All the expectations and things to do can get overwhelming..
And that’s when I remind myself that I’m just one person and that the storms and busyness will pass.
That I don’t have to try to be everything for everyone all the time..
Even as I want to be the strong one that anyone can depend on, that defies the odds and seems to able to overcome any challenge..
Even I need to rest sometimes.
It’s hard for me, but I have to remember that it’s okay not to be okay, to be tired..even to be not strong.
I have to step back and remind myself to live in the moments more- to be fully present and enjoying life as it comes.
Putting away the to do lists, to stop looking at my calendar and start seeing the beauty all around me.
I have to be able to admit that sometimes, I’m not okay.
I’m a messy bundle of nerves that doesn’t have all the answers and worries more than I should..
It’s okay not to always be okay.
It doesn’t matter what the world expects or demands..it matters most what I want, what I can do and just being happy.
Loving passionately, living fully and laughing heartily..
Being outside the box that everyone tries to put us into with their expectations, demands and definitions.
No, I think I’m going to start doing more of the things that make me happy, fill my heart and bring joy to my soul.
Maybe I’ll start stealing away from my day every so often and finding some time to let out frustration, breathe deeply and just “be” for a bit.
There’s always going to be storms, bad days and things to do..
But I can start taking care of me more.
If I don’t, no one else will, either.
Life is a journey, not a sprint, so I’m going to slow down, enjoy the moments and be happy when I can.
I won’t always be okay, be strong or be perfect…
But I don’t have to be.
So long as I’m the best and truest version of myself, the rest of it will work itself out..
I’ll make sure of it.
I’m many things- imperfectly beautiful, a gorgeous mess and most of all, real.
I’ll keep doing the best that I can and that’s enough.
One moment, one day and one beautiful dream at a time.
It’s all up to me.
I’m going to keep choosing happiness.
A girl with a heart.
Do you ever talk to girl and wonder why she's so sensitive about certain topics?
How about why she is so caring to everyone?
Do you ever wonder why she is so willing to give so much of herself with no expectation in return?
It's because she doesn't make you work very hard for the attention she gives you.
It's because she accepts the love she thinks she's earned while you accept the love you think you're entitled to.
It's because she accepts the apologies you don't mean, she forgives the mistakes you don't learn from, and she forgets the misery you don't stop bringing.
Because of her good heart, she's been making excuses for you every single time you hurt her.
She's been looking past how cruel of a person you are, and she's been ignoring the idea of leaving you because she's just not that kind of girl to give up on you.
She trusted you too easily, she got attached to you too quickly, and she fell for you too soon and she knows exactly what she has done, but she can't help it.
She just has a heart that can always see the good in someone and not let your imperfections determine whether or not you're good enough for her.
It also makes her believe that you also have a good heart and you're capable of meeting every expectation she has because she would do the same for you.
But let me explain something to you.......
Here's what you should be afraid of.
You should be afraid of the day, a good heart gives up on you because once this happens, then you've truly lost something more valuable and precious than anything you will ever encounter.
So if you're reading this right now and you currently have a girl with a good heart, take my advice and take care of her, because life doesn't bless you with a good woman twice.