~A Travelling Heart~
My heart has travelled across the vast plains of cyberspace,
Connecting to those who feel like home,
Those that feel like my universal tribe,
Those that are sometimes not ready for physicality, but still crave connection,
Online relationships that felt just as real, if not more so than conventional ones,
Not only connecting with attraction and lust,
But connecting so much deeper on the emotional level,
Even friendships that felt so amazingly overwhelming,
Amazing women who moulded who I have become,
I have loved people that I have had to let go of,
Loved those I will never get to hold and kiss,
And yet, they have touched me just as deeply as any other,
Not because i didn't want to spend this lifetime with them,
But because i couldn't give them the love they deserved,
The big distances were never too much for my soul and heart,
But my ties where too great at the time to cut and move,
I had to put others and my family first beyond what my soul was screaming at me,
The sacrifice could never be theirs as I cared too much,
So I faded away hoping they would find something beautiful in someone else’s smile,
I loved every single one of them like they would be the last,
But we had to become dreams and move on,
It still sometimes haunts my heart thinking about them,
But my mind is at peace knowing our love and friendships didn’t turn to pain,
But they have a piece of me no matter what,
I've carried a heavy heart at times, knowing i had to hold back,
Never again to cross that line beyond friendship,
But I cared too much to give them my soul but not my body,
So I drifted away, clutching my travelling, aching heart.
By Darren J Lamb
