Melete, again.

As all of you are well aware by now, I write a lot of stuff to, for, and about my slave Melete; I do this because she is a favorite subject of mine, for several reasons.

I think some people wonder about the two of us; and the stuff we write together. I say this here and now, openly and publicly, because I believe it needs to be said so that everyone fully understands.

I, am a monster; I have never denied that about myself. I have never once hidden that fact from any woman who has ever known me; and I did not hide it when I returned in this incarnation of a Gorean character. I very openly and clearly said it my own profile when I first returned.

I told everyone exactly what I was looking for in my profile, and I have a witness to that fact; I BADLY misunderstood a certain Physician of Gor, and here I wish to incline my head politely to her and simply say "thank you, Emerald Lady."

I'm going to delve into exactly why Melete is important to me; and why I prize and protect her above ALL else now.

When I first returned to Gor after a long absence from it, I wanted what Gor had once been; I was not aware of the state of its reality now. I have been involved with Gorean culture for many years now, many years. I have seen a lot of good Goreans come and go; this cannot be stopped; reality is a cold hard truth.

I come to Gor, to escape reality for a few hours when I can. I returned seeking a world filled with many people; and instead returned to badly tattered standards. With little interaction to be had, my mind became hungry, and my mood became dark.

In one early edition of my profile I even said it myself "I was looking for a woman who could summon my inner beast and revel with wanton abandon in its attention." I am a Hunter. I hunted a woman. I baited the trap and sat it, I caught Melete; and she is mine. The end.

I write a lot of stuff about Melete, but what I have not written is what Melete means to me because of this; I will correct that oversight here and now because it is long overdue.

When my mind was in a dark and terrible place, one woman lit a torch; that woman was Melete, and for this reason Melete will now always be my first consideration in all things. She is mine, that fact makes responsible for her.

When I roamed the darkest heart of the Northern Forest naked, bloodied and howling; it was her voice that howled in answer. Where the air of my world was stagnant; she brought fresh breezes. Where my fields lay wide and dark, she walked and spread sunshine and wildflowers. Where my world was silent, she was the voice that whispered from the shadows of the trees.

Melete has been through a lot of nonsense with me; I do lose my shit, I absolutely will come unglued, and she has remained at my feet more than once when what she should have done was stand up, slap the piss out of me and walk away without ever looking back.

I know that and I'm big enough to admit it; "I fucked up." I did or said something completely stupid, because I badly misunderstood something. *Looks to the Physician.

My point here being a very simple one; Melete is my first consideration because without her, all the color would fade from my life; the birds would not sing, the stream would not babble.

I will not betray the respect and trust that Melete has earned for herself by being the one woman dare to stand close enough to reach me and made the effort to do so.

I can't betray that level of commitment; I do not keep secrets from Melete, because she is fully part of me now in a way that some people can never understand. Melete reached out to me in a way that no one else had and because of her faith in me, we became something more than just a man and his slave.

We became more than two halves of one thing; and where before there was only myself to consider, now I do not think in terms of "she" and "I", I think in terms of "us" and "we."

There is so much more in my world now, for one reason; Melete, and that is why she will always be my chosen woman. I have no secrets from her, because I will not betray her trust in me. I tell her everything, because I respect her. She will absolutely always be my first consideration because she earned it through her own blood, sweat, and tears.

If you can't understand that, I just can't take you seriously as a Gorean.